There you are, and you suddenly realize that you are spending your whole life just barely getting by. You keep up a good front. You manage to make ends meed somehow and look OK from the outside. But those periods of desperation, those times when you feel everything caving in on you, you keep those to yourself. You are a mess. And you know it. But you hide it beautifully.
Meanwhile, way down under all that you just know there has got be some other way to live, some better way to look at the world, some way to touch life more fully. You click into it by chance now and then. You get a good job. You fall in love. You win the game. and for a while, things are different. Life takes on a richness and clarity that makes all the bad times and humdrum fade away. The whole texture of your experience changes and you say to yourself, “OK, now I’ve made it; now I will be happy”.
But then that fades, too, like smoke in the wind. You are left with just a memory. That and a vague awareness that something is wrong.
—— Mindfulness In Plain English by Henepola Gunaratana Mahathera via ceola
Let’s go back to basics;
Let’s go back to breathing slowly & redefining & refining ourselves. Let’s meditate on the future but exist in the now. Let’s challenge & push our bodies,
down to every neuron,
of every muscle,
to something better & lift ourselves up to something higher than this.
"Let me drive you to a better love"
All she wanted
was find a place to stretch her bones
A place to lengthen her smiles
and spread her hair
A place where her legs could walk
without cutting and bruising
A place unchained
She was born out of ocean breath.
I reminded her;
‘Stop pouring so much of yourself
into hearts that have no room for themselves
Do not thin yourself
You do not bring the ocean to a river’
you are oceanic, Tapiwa Mugabe
“She wore flowers in her hair and carried magic secrets in her eyes… “ She was obsessed with music, with art and words… She smoked cigarettes and went on midnight walks about the city… She stayed up ‘til morning and drank too much coffee and felt the weight of the world way much more than her smiles ever let on…